confession of a broken mind #2

Dear Luv,

Gunungsitoli lagi mendung nih, smoga ujan soalnya udah 2 minggu enggak hujan, persediaan air udah abis dan kami terpaksa beli dari PDAM, water trucking.

Tadi malam baru aja balik dari Lahewa, di sana sempat memainkan hobi lama yg udah lama gak kulakukan: memainkan emosi orang hahaha... I did some sweet revenge to some folks that deserved a lesson about little life stuffs. Oh well, it’s not important to be told here. I did it for friends anyway.

Sebentar lagi kami pulang dari Nias, hmm... klo liat anak2 pada packing gini rasanya sedih juga. Bukannya enggak kerasa, kerasa banget malah, 8 bulan di Nias sungguh unutterable experience. Bitter sweet stuffs blend in one place. Banyak yang udah terjadi di Nias, ya seneng ya sedih ya smua-muanya.

Oh ya, my relationship with my sunshine has finally ended. No don't worry, it was clean, neat and easy. After had contemplation and fermentation with cointreau and red label I decided to give in. I finally able to call him and spilled the beans (when cointreau didn't help, try red label). We did not walk the path better. We simply walked in different paths and got far from each other even more. Am fine, we’re fine. We knew we’d get to this point someday—which was that day. We finally departed through different terminals on different flights, we’re on the way to find our soulmates.

Do you remember the new guy to whom I fall in love recently? Yes, I'm with him now. I know it's so sudden, but hey, maybe this is it. And yes, I've told my Mum and Dad, and they're happy for he is a Catholic. Hmm... I hate to admit this, but for them religion matters. That night, when he kissed me and asked me and I said yes, somehow I knew that I can't kill the feeling inside. That's it. Keep it simple stupid and everything will be okay in the end, if it's not okay then it's not the end. Oh well yes, Red involved :D

All I know now is that I love him, he loves me, our parents agree and we will walk this path together. We don't want to run or put high expectation, as Onggo said: hope will reduce joy, we simply go where the heart says so. We flow but not drowned.

Oh Luv, if only you were here to gimme some hug :) I miss your broken smile badly.

No matter who I love, I love you still.

luv,

-onk-