grow up (?)

Dear Luv,

Howdy?
I don't wanna grow up. You knew it well. But today, I realize something, I have to grow up.

I fall in love with him, the way I fell in love with you years ago --and I love you still, apparently. He doesn't ask me to grow up, but I have to. He said I don't have to, but I know I have to for the choice I chose.

Well maybe it's about the time. It's him who made me tell myself to change, though he doesn't change me. It's him, not you. I don't say it's easy. It's damn hard for me to get my ass out of my childhood world.

Now I walk out to neverland...
luv,
-onk-