heading to the altar... #1: engagement.

Dear Luv,

How's life?
It's been months since our last conversation. I miss you, you know. I've got many things to tell, so many... too many. I kinda lost in my own world, without you.

I've told you that am preparing a wedding, haven't I? I am preparing now. And am engaged now. Oh yes I do. It was on July 16, 2008. It wasn't planned but then Dad popped the words and we did it. It was a simple engagement event. A short talks and prayers from the folks, and then the rings came and then talks and prayers again, and dinner (it was delicious), and the photos time and that was it. And now, am engaged.

Amazing, isn't it? Me go to the altar, next November. Can you picture me wearing wedding dress and walking down the isle heading to someone else but you? Before I met him, I couldn't. But now, yes I can, for I believe that he is the one.

Gosh! I need you now, help me drawing a scene of my wedding. Play the guitar for me, once again for the last time on my wedding day, let it be my last memory of you before I swear to God to be his. Play me the music... music of my heart to calm my panic and restlesness for I haven't familiar yet with his beat, until then let yours be mine still.

... as if am walking down a labyrinth of my own mind...
luv,
-onk-

planning a wedding !

Dear Luv,

We're planning a wedding !!!

OMG, a wedding !!!

can't believe am walking this far. OMG. OMG. OMG !!!

hehehehe... am happy, so please be happy for me. And remember, whoever I love, I love you still --in a very... very... different way :p

Well, I love him, he loves me and nothing else matters, right? Wait 'till end of July and I'll let you know when it's gonna be held ;)

in hilarious excitement, I wanna scream out loud and thanking the Lord for his marvelous blessing.

luv,

-onk-

need an anger management

Dear Luv,

I failed, you know. I failed in controlling my anger. I need anger management lesson.

I was exploding when one of my colleagues devastated thing that I fight for. He stabbed my back. What did you expect me to do?

I feel lost in the war that I created. I think am a loser. What do you think?

wish I can manage my anger better.

luv,

-onk-