:: Privilege of Being an Expectant #1 ::

Dear Luv,

It's my 22nd or 23rd (?) week, and I kinda enjoy this moment. Well, I never thought that being pregnant can be this lovely -remembering my first trimester, duh! As some said, second trimester is the lightest term of pregnancy. Regardless the headache and nausea, I start to eat a lot.

My body has changed, people now can see my big womb and chubby cheek. As they recognize me being pregnant, they start to give special attention. Oh you know what, it's quite fun actually.

Do you see the banana above? Yup, a friend gave it to me this morning. I asked one or two pieces, I got a cluster instead :) Last week, I asked one or two pieces rambutan, and they gave me a kilo. Perhaps they think that I need lots of certain thing that I asked, when I actually wanted to taste a bit only.

Oh I wish my baby is fine inside me, I really... really happy for his/her presence.

Thanks God.

banana cheers,

-onk-

marriage life: it takes two

Dear Luv,

I just wanna scream out loud to the world: I AM MARRIED :)

well, my life has pretty much changed, directly or indirectly, either wanted or not. Don't take it falsly, am happy... very happy. Changes that happened in my life is a positive thing, even the best thing ever.

It takes two to make everything run well. And as many other newly weds, we are so excited to start our marriage life. Wish us joy and strength, for I have to be one of the Sicilian women.


Damn wish you were there to witness the most important step in my life, to see me walk with my beloved.

luv,
-onk-

nothing else matters

Dear Luv,

You know that I really... really love this song. And guess what, we plan to have this song as soundtrack of our wedding vow. Am proposing Alec to play the guitar, wish me luck :)
Please listen to this and tell me what you think.

Song lyrics | Nothing Else Matters lyrics

heading to the altar... #2: mapping the plan [thanks to mindmap]

Dear Luv,

Hope this letter finds you fit and fine.

I knew that preparing a wedding is tiring, I just never thought it could be this hard, mentally rather than physically. So many... too many wishes, opinions, ideas and finally... arguments.

I used to dream to have wedding with unique and pretty details, this and that and bla-bla-bla... but now, when I am planning and preparing my own wedding many parts of that dream fade away and less important than the marriage itself.

Yes, from wedding I go to marriage. Wedding last for 2 to 3 days, and perhaps more in some cultures, but marriage --for me-- will last forever, which is quite scary actually. Imagine that you'll live with the same person for the rest of your life. You'll wake and sleep by her side. You'll see her oily face and sweat smell body in her just-wake-up mode every morning, you'll experience her ups and downs, you'll witness and have to deal with her bad side and her most unacceptable behaviors. OMG! I have to stop this or else I'll cancel my wedding haha...

I have 3 months left and I haven't completed the series of important preparation. I even haven't prepared my gown. For some brides to be, it means suicide. I guess beside getting married am also getting crazy :( oh well, everything will be okay in the end if it's not okay it's not the end.

Things that are done:
1. tuxedo for the groom to be (must take it after 17 August and send it to groom to be for fitting)
2. booking bridal (haven't pay the downpayment though, must do it soon)
3. browse some photos vendors (got a place, nego the price please!)
4. have fixed plan for the reception place (finally! must book and pay downpayment asap)
5. administrative almost done, targetted to be done this week (a must!)
Uurgh crap! Still have so much to do! How many days do I still have?

You know what, many friends are now calmer after pretty shocked with my engagement and getting married news. They get used to it somehow.

FYI, I make mindmap for my wedding project, and amazingly it helps. You may borrow mine when your time to plan your wedding come. Believe me, you'll need it badly.

Alrite, gotta split now. Gonna find the way out otherwise I'll get lost in one of the branches of wedding project in my mindmap.

luv,
-onk-

heading to the altar... #1: engagement.

Dear Luv,

How's life?
It's been months since our last conversation. I miss you, you know. I've got many things to tell, so many... too many. I kinda lost in my own world, without you.

I've told you that am preparing a wedding, haven't I? I am preparing now. And am engaged now. Oh yes I do. It was on July 16, 2008. It wasn't planned but then Dad popped the words and we did it. It was a simple engagement event. A short talks and prayers from the folks, and then the rings came and then talks and prayers again, and dinner (it was delicious), and the photos time and that was it. And now, am engaged.

Amazing, isn't it? Me go to the altar, next November. Can you picture me wearing wedding dress and walking down the isle heading to someone else but you? Before I met him, I couldn't. But now, yes I can, for I believe that he is the one.

Gosh! I need you now, help me drawing a scene of my wedding. Play the guitar for me, once again for the last time on my wedding day, let it be my last memory of you before I swear to God to be his. Play me the music... music of my heart to calm my panic and restlesness for I haven't familiar yet with his beat, until then let yours be mine still.

... as if am walking down a labyrinth of my own mind...
luv,
-onk-

planning a wedding !

Dear Luv,

We're planning a wedding !!!

OMG, a wedding !!!

can't believe am walking this far. OMG. OMG. OMG !!!

hehehehe... am happy, so please be happy for me. And remember, whoever I love, I love you still --in a very... very... different way :p

Well, I love him, he loves me and nothing else matters, right? Wait 'till end of July and I'll let you know when it's gonna be held ;)

in hilarious excitement, I wanna scream out loud and thanking the Lord for his marvelous blessing.

luv,

-onk-